Looking back at 19 years.

A new year and a time for reflection. Reflection for all the things learnt and all the things forgot. I realize that life isn't as perfect as it seems and that it needn't be that way, I realize that too often are people consumed with material gains that they may never know true happiness. The painful realization that I may join their ranks if I'm not too careful although I'm determined not to. I understand now that sometimes even though you may try your best...it just isn't enough and that's okay too if ou just have faith. Faith'll get you through alot of things to be honest but I abhor blind faith or perhaps thats blind faith in religion..either way...'the belief that I need is the proof that I am.' I realize that all the times when I cursed my parents; swearing I'd never be like them I was wrong and that being a child means just that and doesnt have to mean any thing more. Too often do parents force their children to grow up too fast and that jus ends with a fuckd up usually pompous jackass. I learnt that when good things come along to enjoy them cos they might not always be there in the future. The significance even strikes me now of 'The Gambler', 'you gotta know when to hold em, know when to fold em, know when to walk away know when to run' Guess thats the new philosophy in life cos everything really is a gamble. Perhaps a resolution then; not to swear for a month....Doubt it'll work with all the INTIMA stuff :P learnt that the best people to work with are pains in the asses and the worst thing is when people don't take pride in their work. Humility is terribly over-rated and the whole "Pride is a sin" is unfortunately always taken outta context. It is a sin (For the misguided believers) only when you are so Proud as to believe that you can do anything without god's help. Dumbasses. So seriously lighten up, enjoy yourself.

I realized the value of true friends and that though distance may erode the bonds created, the bond itself is eer timeless. I learnt that sacrifice is a part of life and so is compromise. However I shall never ever give up on what I think is right even if I think its hopeless cos at the end of it, its you that will have to live with the choices that you make and nobody else so the least that you can do is be true to yourself. I learnt that while its may be easier to live a lie its far more meaningful to live in reality but at the same time everyone needs their special escape place when life just gets too much of a bitch which it does far too often unfortunately. Oh well. Lessons learnt, relearnt and forgot. Hope 2010's infinitely better to all. Much <3

Seeing it from the other side of the table.

Gosh this is boring! Being the President is boring! Its just managing people like I enjoy doing it and all guess I'm just not a desk person...would rather be out there making those changes...thankfully VP Academix is still keeping me busy and studies as well. Freaking hard! Can't seem to understand shit in classes but thats probably just because its the beginning and they're easing us into it...I'd rather they throw it at us and tell us to sink and swim. Qin Le actually made an access database for all our contacts, makes things freaking more easy. Sucks that people keep underestimating him and he behaves like a monkey at times, no wait scratch that, most of the time. oh well Lifes lessons eh?

I wrote a whole new year thingy but didnt get around to posting it was all sentimental and shit I'll find it soon and put it up, laterz Much love.

Flesh and Bones

Somethings in life I am immensely grateful for....though I may never show it. My friends, my parents, faith...they're like rocks jus like how Jesus said to Peter 'Upon this Rock I shall build my church' upon them shall I build myself. 5 am again and we just finished recording one song..I aimed for 3 but I'll settle for that one, I think its beautiful...has so much meaning to it if one can look deep enough and yeah the singings a bit off here and there but fuck it, its all good :P
"They believe what they cant see, but doubt what they can // The belief that I need is the proof that I am" Laters Folks. Fear for the worst, hope for the best :)