Looking back at 19 years.

A new year and a time for reflection. Reflection for all the things learnt and all the things forgot. I realize that life isn't as perfect as it seems and that it needn't be that way, I realize that too often are people consumed with material gains that they may never know true happiness. The painful realization that I may join their ranks if I'm not too careful although I'm determined not to. I understand now that sometimes even though you may try your best...it just isn't enough and that's okay too if ou just have faith. Faith'll get you through alot of things to be honest but I abhor blind faith or perhaps thats blind faith in religion..either way...'the belief that I need is the proof that I am.' I realize that all the times when I cursed my parents; swearing I'd never be like them I was wrong and that being a child means just that and doesnt have to mean any thing more. Too often do parents force their children to grow up too fast and that jus ends with a fuckd up usually pompous jackass. I learnt that when good things come along to enjoy them cos they might not always be there in the future. The significance even strikes me now of 'The Gambler', 'you gotta know when to hold em, know when to fold em, know when to walk away know when to run' Guess thats the new philosophy in life cos everything really is a gamble. Perhaps a resolution then; not to swear for a month....Doubt it'll work with all the INTIMA stuff :P learnt that the best people to work with are pains in the asses and the worst thing is when people don't take pride in their work. Humility is terribly over-rated and the whole "Pride is a sin" is unfortunately always taken outta context. It is a sin (For the misguided believers) only when you are so Proud as to believe that you can do anything without god's help. Dumbasses. So seriously lighten up, enjoy yourself.

I realized the value of true friends and that though distance may erode the bonds created, the bond itself is eer timeless. I learnt that sacrifice is a part of life and so is compromise. However I shall never ever give up on what I think is right even if I think its hopeless cos at the end of it, its you that will have to live with the choices that you make and nobody else so the least that you can do is be true to yourself. I learnt that while its may be easier to live a lie its far more meaningful to live in reality but at the same time everyone needs their special escape place when life just gets too much of a bitch which it does far too often unfortunately. Oh well. Lessons learnt, relearnt and forgot. Hope 2010's infinitely better to all. Much <3